About

This is my blog, about being a young, childfree person in a female body, but of an undecided gender. At my age, I get a lot of ‘you’ll change your mind’ style bingos. There are many girls my age, and younger, who are having kids. Anyone going to tell them that they’ll change their mind? Thought not. On top of this, I get people telling me what my gender is meant to be.

Who am I then? Well, I’m seen around online as either Zanzi or ChildfreeKey. I’m 18, I’m a job surfer, and I’m a traveler in spirit, even though I can’t afford to travel. I don’t want to be tied down with kids, I want to live my life as I see fit. Does that make me selfish? Of course not! I’m not hurting anyone, am I? It’d be more selfish for me to have kids and resent them.

I’m currently fighting for my right to get sterilized, but I really doubt I’m going to get anywhere with it. I can’t afford to go private (that’s if they agree), and my GP refuses to refer me, stating that age old bingo of ‘how will you feel in 5, 10 years time?’. So, what if I DO change my mind and want kids? I’ll adopt. I feel no need to continue my genetic line, and adoption is ethically better than breeding in so many way. But, it’s a moot point anyway. No kids please!

I am soul searching at the moment, to decide what gender I am. I have been informed by doctors that my gender confusion could be a byproduct of my mental illness. Part of me wants to be angry about this, but the rest of me knows that my mind is fantastically unstable. I also know that I display signs of schizoid behavior, so I am not willing to undergo any lifestyle or physical changes until I get my head in check. I live in a small and homo/trans-phobic community, so it’s easier to stay outwardly female, until I am certain of who I am.

Any questions? Ask me!

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   cyclepod Said:

   on January 1, 2010 at 12:45 pm

   I love travel and I went round the world backpacking, one of the best things I ever did.

   I did Oz – Perth, Sydney, Alice, Townville, Cairns, Brisbane, Vancouver, Reykyavik, New York, Hong Kong, Lebanon and Europe.

   I always used to be on the Lonelyplanet website.

   I don’t do so much travelling now because my job is low paid but I love it apart from the airports, they are awful! I enjoy coach and train travel, and cycle a lot. You meet lots of interesting people and see lots of extraordinary scenery. Lots of fun adventures too. I used to write travel journals as away of remembering things.

   If i was rich, I’d go to Mongolia, that looks an amazing place. The food is probably very nasty though but I have had lots of yucky things before.

   As for sterilisation I find that that would encourage the man not to use comdoms and to be honest, we never know where a man has really been. I am paranoid about STDs and have seen some STDs in photos and they look painful and nasty. Condoms for me have been the best bit. Saying that I have been lucky that they haven’t broken – touch wood

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   Jane Said:

   on March 3, 2010 at 8:11 pm

   Is it really so difficult for you to not discriminate against those that choose to have children? I realize that people who are childfree (such as myself, that’s how I stumbled upon your blog) are often the butt of many inflammatory and ignorant remarks, but that does NOT make it acceptable for us, or anyone to refer to people that have children, and plan on having children, as “breeders”. Get off your high-horse.

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     childfreekey Said:

     on March 3, 2010 at 9:34 pm

     Jane, I have replied to you on the main page.

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   Kristine Said:

   on August 5, 2010 at 4:49 pm

   You seem like a thoughtful, educated, aware individual who, by the way, can express your thoughts with flawless grammar, which is a hell of a lot more than I can say for most. Keep it up!

   Jane: A breeder is “one who breeds.” Try checking with Merriam before getting snippy.

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